When Did Living Become So Hard

I remember your laugh,

I remember your smile,

I remember your touch,

Though it’s been a while.

I miss your gaze,

I miss your sweet kiss,

I miss being with you,

It was unforgettable bliss.

I know you don’t miss me,

I know you’ve moved on,

I know I should forget you,

But I’m just not that strong.

I still recall the words,

I still recall what was said,

I still recall the promises,

The things you never meant.

I’m sorry I’m not ok,

I’m sorry I’m not stronger,

I’m sorry I’m still in love with you,

And I can’t do this much longer.

I don’t know how to live without you,

I don’t know how to survive,

I don’t know what it is about you,

That makes me weak inside.

I’m usually the one that deals,

I’m usually the one that’s fine,

I’m usually ok with break ups,

But I miss you being mute.

At first it was infatuation,

At first it was just a faze,

At first it was something I would end,

But now I barely make it through the day.

I never attached this easily,

I never lose this fight,

I never let my heart broken,

But now I cry myself to sleep at night.

I don’t remember it being this difficult,

I don’t remember not being able to laugh,

I don’t remember being so distraught about it,

When did living become so hard?