You Say You Know Me

I love the pain it brings me,

I don’t know why,

The pain is my pleasure,

As I sit there and cry.

Cry myself to sleep,

I wake up to an annoying beep,

The of my alarm,

Waking me from my dream!

My dreams my own personal wonderland,

I love it there,

I can actually be happy and free,

Without the chains of depression dragging me down.

People say I am the happiest person they know,

Always bubbly and free,

But I guess they don’t know me.

My mask the one I’ve been carrying,

Since as long as I can remember,

Has been there for me

The one thing I can count on.

I take my expressions,

As I have been for the past 19 years,

19 years of sorrow, tears, pain, fears…

19 years of lies

I wish I could just say goodbye,

Goodbye to it all.

I’m done, it’s over,

I hate what I’ve become,

What I choose to be done isn’t to me,

I’ve never gotten to choose who I want to be!

I love the pain it brings me,

I don’t know why,

The pain is my pleasure

As I sit there and cry!!